Friday, August 26, 2011

*no one reads what i write, so who the hell cares what i write, right ?
trying to reach out to someone here*

Hello. 
another school break, its Raya. woooaa.
so im at home doing what i do best, staring at the monitor wondering + stupid-ing myself when i know i've homework to do.


I've nothing much to tell really,
yes that's right. im bland.
im boring, blank, clear of fun stuff and basically uninteresting.
that doesn't mean im not human, I still have feelings.

do you notice I've stopped talking to you ?
do you notice that I look the other way when you pass by ?
do you notice that im upset with you ?
wait, the right question is
do you even notice me ?
did I even exist in your mind, or am i just crap on the ground that you could kick around ?

yes, you have your friends. you wouldn't need nothing else.
even if I got ran over by a ginormous truck i bet you wouldn't even bother to care.

i thought you are a person i could rely on.
i thought you are a person who would understand.
i thought you are a good friend.
i thought you are like family.
you Were.

if i was questioned , who is the guy you most care about at school ?
i would've said you.
you was the first person I've ever met at school that made me feel good of myself.

but now I see,
PEOPLE CHANGE.
you can't do a thing about it.